Wow, when I read what you wrote Fashionworks, I have to admit, I also feel the sting of self conscience when my clarity is clouded. I too have self doubt at different times throughout the year.... Being in the entertainment industry, I have to rely upon my instinct (not others) to take on a project or not. Usually my choices are uncharted which leaves my choices up for public critique and when they're harsh, its very hard not to worry about what people think of me. I admire other actors and entertainers who seem to not care what others think...(i always wonder are they telling the truth that they dont read their reviews!) Please be gentle with your self reflection and allow yourself to dream and go for what you want. If more people did that, we wouldn't have such inner conflict. If you train yourself to not shut down after being afraid of the unknown, you will do what you have set out to do.
Having a mother who tries and gets out there is better than having a mother afraid to take a chance and give up. You're doing great at 35! The best is yet to come! rock on woman, Emme